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ꀘ꒒ꋬ꒤ꇙ ꂵ꒐ꀘꋬꏂ꒒ꇙꄲꋊ ([personal profile] poppycock) wrote2020-04-02 01:52 pm

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[personal profile] middlefinger 2020-12-07 07:45 pm (UTC)(link)

This may not seem like much to him, but for her it means more than he can say. He has been kind in his rejection. Even if they cannot be what they were before, he does not want to exorcise himself from her life. He is not leaving her alone to reckon with her pain, like so many before him have. So rarely has she received comfort outside of her sister.

Perhaps part of her will always be that young girl who made a terrible mistake, who wishes someone had listened instead of sending her away.

And so while this way not seem like much to him, for her it is more thn enough, more than she could have allowed herself to hope to want in this moment as his arms wrap around her in kind, cradling her close. The smell of him is warm and familiar, as comforting as his embrace itself. She is not ready to pull away, not just yet. She allows herself this tiny act of selfishness, who knows when or if he'll hold her like this again.

"Maybe it's okay if we don't know." This is new for both of them, albeit in different ways, and they will have to figure it out as they go. It is bound to be messy, caring for people always is. And she knows much of what is up ahead, she will have to figure out on her own, not that that's ever been her strong suit.